Maybe I should drink the water...

Around here people always joke that if you want to get pregnant, drink the water. Apparently I haven't had any of our icky water. We have been trying to get pregnant for over a year now. Well I'm not really sure how long due to the fact that I went two months without a period, then another two months and then 4!! This was all early last year. So i guess techinically it has been a year. It's getting to the point where I'm getting very frustrated and also a tad bit worried. I'm trying not to obsess over it. I know some things take time. There are those lucky people where their husbands can just look at them and they're pregnant. I'm not fertile myrtle,I guess.

I think what really bothers me is that I feel like its the right time. We have been together for what seems like forever (I love you honey!) Not really forever, but you get what I mean. We have good jobs, we bought a house. It just feels like the right time. I almost feel stuck. Everyone I know is either getting engaged, married, or having a kid. I feel like i'm stuck out in whatever land with nothing.

I have caught myself almost feeling upset that someone is pregnant before me...or again already. I truly am happy for them that they are expecting but I also am jealous that I'm not. A friend asked me if we would adopt if we couldn't have kids of our own. I supposed we would, I haven't really thought that far into things.

I try to remind myself that it will happen when it happens. or I'll go see my doctor. Thats due here pretty soon, so I guess we will be talking options/things to try. I was very impressed with my doctor last time I went. It was the first time I had even went there and she seemed very proactive. Almost too proactive for me then.

I'm ready. so ready and scared that it might not happen.

Not trying to be a downer here, just venting something I've been feeling for a long time.

Addicted

I am addicted to reading peoples blogs. I keep discovering more blogs of people I know or don't know. I enjoy reading about people's lives. Not in a nosey way, but just as a so this is what life is like in another city or state. I like it. Once you read one blog, you find links to more blogs and other things. I enjoy it. Keeps from entertained on my day off. I should really be doing laundry or studying for my registry.

I apologize for the lack of double spacing between paragraphs in the other entry. I tried I really did.

Winners!

So this season of reality tv had my interest. I've never actually watched a whole episode of Dancing with the Stars until this season; I've only watched one season of American Idol when Carrie Underwood won; and I love watching ANTM.

Well this year, I decided to watch DWTS. I was always a fan of Kristi Yamaguchi when I was a child. I still to this day enjoy watching figure skating. It's always something I've wanted to be able to do. The jumps, spins, etc. One of those childhood dreams, I suppose. I really wanted Kristi to win, although I didn't vote. It was totally obvious she should win. She was the best dancer from the beginning, hands down! And she WON! yay!

I can say that I didn't watch a whole episode of AI this year. I think th show has really just run its course. Its kinda blah to me. (hopefully all the AI fans won't kill me after they read this) I did however in my channel flipping, hear David Cook sing a few times. I like his voice. I definitely thought he should win over Archuleta, mainly because he's older and I felt he would appreciate it and do well. I honestly figured Archuleta would win. He had been the favorite from the beginning. Much to my suprise and I think David Cook's suprise, he won! YAY again!

The most anticipated season finale (for me) was ANTM. My stupid cable company doesn't carry the CW network so I have to watch the episodes on youtube the next day. On ANTM, they always have little skinny people. Occasionally they have what they call plus size models. These girls are only maybe a 10 or 12! SO NOT plus size. If they're plus size, I'm gigantic size. Anyway, Whitney was on this season and she made it to the final 3. This is the absolute farthest any "plus size" girl had EVER made it. I didn't think she would win due to her size. BUT she did! My mouth literally dropped open when I read she had won. I was freakin happy! Maybe theres hope for the rest of us now...hehe. When I told my husband, (who claims he doesn't like those shows) he actually did a "WHAT?!?"

So my shows have ended, well I might add. Now all thats left is Shot at Love with Tila Tequila, which I do not watch. Flavor of Love has ended only for him to go back to his baby's mama. I guess we shall see what new trash tv comes on this summer.

Success!!

Well our first get together with friends was a success! YAY! I was a little nervous because in our whole married life we've never had a lot of people over. I'm social, but I've not always been of fan of lots of people in my house and all the cleaning and preparation that goes with it. I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that my parents never did that alot when I was growing up. So I've never been comfortable with it.

Anywho, we had 9 people total. We grilled. I'll brag on my husband a little. My grilled chicken was awesome!! We played Wii games and a really hilarious game of apples to apples. Met a few new people who I really liked. Overall I was pretty happy with how everything turned out!

This has been a lazy weekend for us. We did a whole lot of nothing. Rented a few movies yesterday and watched some of them yesterday and today. I had my parents and brother over tonight for lasagna.

My brand new dining room table is broken!! It has a self stored leaf/leave whatever thing. When you try to open it, it won't slide properly because track is broken. I'm gonna try tomorrow and call to see if I can get a new one or whats going to happen. I wish it was fixable but I dont think it is.

Another boring post for you...:)

4 Total

This last week I lost another lb. So thats 4! YAY! I didn't do so well last week w/staying on my points. I did decent, just went over some days.

I dont have much to talk about right now. My camera is "broken." I'll leave you with some pictures, and a real update to come later.

Full moon last night

Vacation...or not

I went to the dentist today, just for a regular cleaning & check-up. I've never really been one of those that loved the dentist, but I'm not terrified of going. I actually like coming out with clean feeling teeth. When I was younger, I always got told by the dentist "You need braces." Well that was all good and well, but my parents had to pay for them and they are freakin expensive. After a switch in dentists, I did get them. I think it was 8th grade. That happened to be around the time braces were almost considered cool or fashionable. Yeah, I know. For once, I was a cool kid with braces. No clue why they were cool, they just were. Got those off about 2 yrs later only to find out I'd need my wisdom teeth removed. UGH! I was told before hand I wouldn't.

These last few years I've been told and asked "When are you going to get those removed?" Of course today, it came up again. My excuse used to be I'm in school and dont have time. Then it was because we didn't have insurance. Now its just because I'm plain scared. I was blessed with wisdom teeth like my fathers. They're nice and impacted in there and not moving. Unless of course they're cut out. Seeing as how my life isn't going to get any less hectic, I've decided I'm gonna get them out before the year is up. I'm thinking probably after our vacation in September. I have two weeks I can take with work, so my second week of vacation (or not) I'll use for that. I'm not excited, but everyone says its not bad and I'll be so much happier once I get them out. I'm not unhappy now with them in. :)

-3lbs!!

Yes, I lost 3 lbs in my first week of weight watchers! I was actually suprised that it was that much. I kept up with my point allowances and logged in all my foods. I think I only went over 1 or 2 days last week. I only worked out 1 day, so I figured I might lose maybe a pound. But 3? WOW! I know that I may not lose that many this week, but progress is exciting and making this feel worth my time...and money.

Sorry for lack of blogging. I was kinda busy last week. We finally got our dining room table in. I only ordered it 2 months ago! That makes the house feel complete. We dont have to sit on the couch anymore to eat supper. The only thing we are missing are some pictures on the wall. I like decorating, but I'm also incredibly indecisive and dont like to commit to one thing. So it can wait.

I cancelled my nerve test that was tomorrow. My insurance won't pay for it because I haven't met my deductable yet and the office won't do payment plans, so I'll wait. My arm was mysteriously feeling better too. You know you schedule the appointment and by the time it rolls around, the pain or ache has gone away. Then it comes back after you've either gone for the appt or canncelled it. I hate that. I'll probably eventually have the test, I'll just have it elsewhere.

I was quite proud of myself this weekend. I made a trip to Little Rock with a friend for a concert. I'm not incredibly comfortable driving in big cities with all the traffic and crazy on and off ramps. I'm not experienced enough with that kind of driving and it makes me nervous. I think I actually did a pretty good job getting around. I had directions but I kinda went with memories of being around the places to get me in and out. It makes me feel grown up to drive in the towns. I know I sound stupid, but really I usually let other people drive because I'm too scared.

I hope all the mothers out there had a great mothers day! Mine was ok. I was told I'm a "mother" to my furry kids. I guess so.

Enough for now, more blog to come later!

Caffeine

caf·feine /kæˈfin, ˈkæfin, ˈkæfiɪn/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[ka-feen, kaf-een, kaf-ee-in]
–noun Chemistry, Pharmacology.
a white, crystalline, bitter alkaloid, C8H10N4O2, usually derived from coffee or tea: used in medicine chiefly as a nervous system stimulant.

I was totally and completely craving this today. The headache was and still is pretty awful. Between the headache and the fact that I felt like I could fall asleep at any moment made for a pretty interesting day. I have to keep telling myself that giving up sodas is a good thing and I will benefit in the long run. I've been drinking lots and I mean LOTS of mountain dew lately. Like 1 or 2 cans a day! So going cold turkey and gonna hurt, but I'm prepared. I think. Sweet tea is one thing that I'm not sure I can give up. I managed to not have any today or yesterday, so we'll see on that. Its like my drug of choice, err drink of choice. I still have 5 points left for today and I worked out for 35 mins. Boy that kicked my butt but its well worth it.

Oh and just so you know if anyone was worried, my MRI came out normal. Now I have that nerve test, which I'm totally not looking forward to. I'm trying to keep from being one of the people who use the internet to research medical procedures, but its so tempting to check it out. What I've heard about it, is not good. Needles, shocks, etc. I already feel sorry for whoever is gonna have to put those things in my arm because my good arm might be free to let them know exactly how it feels. I may actually have to take someone with me to, uh, help me get through it.

Great day!

Today turned out to be a pretty awesome day for me. I went to the dr for my neck. Went and had my MRI today and have a nerve test on my arm in a few weeks. I've heard not so great stories about that but I'm gonna have to do it to find out whats going on. I'll keep you updated on how those turn out.

Today I got a chance to speak my mind and be honest about my feelings with a friend and it actually felt really good to get it all out. My doubts were gone and I felt so much better knowing we were on the same page about things. I just have to quit overanalyzing and thinking to much.

I ordered a new camera lense and got that in today. I can't wait to have some time to go try it out. Hopefully that will happen this weekend, giving the weather cooperates and I'm not working all day.

Another big thing going on with me, I signed up for Weight Watchers on sunday. I'm doing the online version, so I dont have to go to those annoying meetings. YAY! They have two versions on the online part. I chose the points system. I went over my points today but I'm still getting adjusted to what I can eat, rather how much I can eat. Also working it out for my work days when lunch out is the only option is gonna be fun. I'm trying to avoid sodas all together. Thats going to be a headache-literally! I think thats the reason I have one now! So wish me luck, I'm hoping to lose 50lbs, maybe more...

Priceless

Since we've moved, I can honestly say I've been a tad bit obsessed with how our house looks. Mainly the outside area since thats what the neighbors see. I want our yard to look nice. Don't want to be the only one with the bad looking yard. After much nagging, (yes I nag, I can admit it) I got the husband to mow the yard. Then we improved some things with our flower bed. I dont claim to have a green thumb or even know what some of the plants are called, as you will see. After 3 trips to Lowes, 1 trip to Hobby Lobby, 2 trips to Harmony Garden nursery, numerous trips to Wal-Mart and Home Depot (we got nothing at either place) the list is as follows:

13 bags of mulch

55 decorative stones

1 bag-64 quarts-potting soil

3 ceramic pots

3 azaleas

2 pink flowers

18 small white flowers

After two afternoons of work, knowing that it looks so much better was good...BUT
hearing you're husband say, " You're right, it really does look better!"
PRICELESS!

New at this...

I decided to start this blog for a few reasons. I feel that here I can be completely open and honest (as much as I feel like that is) about my feelings, thoughts, etc rather than on my little myspace blog. Like it says Everything...and more. So things to come will be a mish mash of me and my world. It's strange that I feel more comfortable allowing complete strangers read this versus all my friends on say myspace. Strangers can judge me and I never know or will never see them. I know friends will read this, but as its said, "Frankly my dear, I dont give a damn!"
Read. Enjoy!