It's been a while...

I had to get in atleast one post before 2009. Nothing much to write about these days. I doubt you want to read about my nausea, excessive trips to the bathroom, and what I'm enjoying eating.

Oh well, you get to anyway, well some of it. I can't say that I've really been sick. I just learned that when I'm hungry eat, doesn't have to be a huge meal, but if I don't then I dont feel so well. So if its 10am and I think I can wait til noon to eat, I can't. I feel like a bottomless pit somedays. I really have been enjoying grapes and oranges and triscuits. Not together. Chicken is my friend. Beef is not!! Only puked once, but I think it was just a bad burger. Smells are a big thing, I actually made Ben go get groceries because just the thought of all that did not set well with me. Wal-Mart was torture! Between the cologne and food, yuck!

Hope everyone had a great Christmas! Ours was good. I missed getting together with Ben's family on Christmas Eve because I wasn't feeling well.

This past weekend, Lindsey, Heath, Ben and I went to see Jeff Dunham live. It was a great show! Guitar Guy is really good, he was the opener. I think the show was definitely worth the drive plus we got to see snow! We went from 70 degrees here to below freezing and snow! I really want to play in it but we didn't.

Tomorrow, I have a Dr's appt and ultrasound. So thats exciting. Hoping to have pictures to show!!

Best Christmas Present EVER!!!

We were planning on starting Clomid once I got my period. Well.....I never did. :) I told myself I'd wait til Friday to take a pregnancy test. I actually used my only one in the house the day before our RE appointment, just to see if I had an excuse to cancel the appointment. It was negative, but it also would've been too early anyway. So a week later I had Ben go buy some more tests. I was still planning on waiting til Friday but figured what the heck. I had this feeling that I was pregnant, I just felt like I was. Granted, I've never been pregnant, so I dont know what that feels like. BUT, I took the test. Results showed soooo quickly. I sprinted out of the bathroom and pretty much threw the test in Ben's face. He was on the computer not paying any attention.

I started laughing/crying/hyperventilating all at the same time. He was shocked. We hugged and laughed. I was still holding the test and Ben finally said "You peed on that thing?!?!" DUH!

So...a great Christmas present and Anniversary present. Our 4 year wedding anniversary is tomorrow!

I couldn't sleep that night of course, so about 1 am I got up and took another test, just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. ;) I ended up taking all 3 in the box. When am I gonna use them again? Atleast not soon for sure.

I had my blood test on Friday, came back with great numbers. So Friday night we told our parents. We got a folding picture frame and put in a pic of us and on the other side put "Merry Christmas from the three of us." Both sets of parents were very excited. We told the rest of the family Saturday. So its been a busy busy weekend. Exciting and busy!

I haven't let myself get overly obsessed with looking at baby stuff yet, but I have a snow day today, I'm guessing it will happen. :)

I know everyone has questions, so here is my FAQ. I should've done this before announcing and then printed it and handed to everyone. :)

Q: When did you find out?

A: 12/10/08

Q: When is your due date?

A: What I can calculate says August 13, 2009. That will probably change

Q: How far along are you?

A: approx 6 weeks. I haven't had an ultrasound yet so those are just my calculations

Q: Is it a boy or girl?

A: Its way too early to know that

Q: Do you have names picked out?

A: Yes, only for a girl though. I have some boy ideas but nothing I'm set on. I do have a little while to decide though.

Q: Are you excited?

A: OF COURSE!!!! I think Ben is more excited than I am, if thats possible.

Q: How are you feeling?

A: Great! Hoping I dont get sick!

For now I'm still going to the RE. They gave me the choice, since we hadn't done any treatments. Go to them for first 10 weeks then go to OB. Or just go straight to OB. I stuck with RE because I figured we could get in faster as far as ultrasound and things.

Now for pictures!!

First test!

Cell phone pic of all 3

Cell Phone pic of what we gave our parents

Heres Ben's grandma after we told her. Theres a small story to this one. We went for her birthday. This was all Ben's idea by the way. Right before we left, we stood for a picture.

Ben said, "What do we say when we take a picture?"

His grandma, "Cheese?!"

Ben "No, Leah what do we say?"

Me "Leah's pregnant!"

Then the picture was snapped. It was funny! Ben's parents were the only ones there that knew. So it was a suprise for everyone.

Neglected

Yes, my blog has been neglected. I have good excuses. Busy, boring, busy and still boring. I figured you didn't want to hear about my numerous dr's visits. I'll make it the short version.

Eyes-haven't really changed in 4 yrs

Went for my wrist/arm-fam dr sent me to ortho-he thinks its a nerve in my elbow. So I've got meds to take, but I can't take them now. I'll explain why later.

RE-were planning to start Clomid once I start my period. Don't go back til March. Of course that has changed now as well. Thats a separate blog. :)

Our Christmas tree and decorations went up a few days after Thanksgiving. We haven't put up the big tree since 2005, so i was pretty excited. I have pics of that to show you.

I started the Twilight series right around Thanksgiving. Finished the first 3 books rather quickly. I'm on Breaking Dawn right now, but its taking me a while to get it finished. It is a long long book though. Thats my excuse. :)

Not the best pictures of our tree and stuff but it'll do for now. Much prettier in person!

Guess what?!?!

I haven't posted about my weight loss in a while, though it was time. I did actually quit paying for Weight Watchers, but I've still kind of kept up with it. AND...stepped on the scale this morning....

I've lost 18lbs!!

Yes its taken me a while, but thats totally ok, since I haven't put it back on. 2 more lbs til 20 lost! I can't believe it!!

I totally pigged out at Thanksgiving too, seconds and everything. Very little dessert but I still ate. So I'm shocked really!!

Just had to share! :)

What I did Friday...

The baking bug bit me and I made some stuff, instead of going shopping with all the Black Friday crazies (no offense to anyone that went).

First I did pumpkin pie. I used fresh pumpkin in the recipe. For the pie crust, I used my grandma's recipe that is super easy! I decided I'm not a fan of pumpkin pie. It smells good but I'm not a fan of the texture. Ben says it was good and his co-workers liked it as well. So yay!!

Second, I made a cake. Sorta. I got the recipe from Rachael Ray's magazine. It started with gingersnap pancakes. I took gingersnap cookies and crushed them up and added them to pancake batter. You also add cocoa to the batter, thats why they're dark.

Then, I made whipped cream and added some espresso to it for some flavor.

Now, the chocolate sauce.

Then you take a pancake, put it on your plate or whatever you're serving it on. Add whippped cream, then add pancake and repeat until you use all of them. I had 9 total, I think the recipe had 8. Close enough.

Then you cover with your chocolate sauce. I think my chocolate either wasn't cool enough or something because it was very runny. The picture in the magazine made it look thicker than mine so the next picture looks really awful. Its messy, but aren't the best foods messy?!? :) I apologize for my poor presentation.



Ben also took it to work where half was eaten. So it must've been good. He said before it got out of the driveway half of it had slid off, so it was even messier when it got to work. Oh well!!


I also made these cookies. Yes I was busy, but glad to be for sure!



I'm proud of myself because out of all of it, all I ate was one bite of pumpkin! YAY!

I am not in control

and it bugs the crap out of me!! Yes I have control issues, don't we all? Lately, our fertility issues, or lack of them, (I dont know if we can say we have any anymore, even though we're not pregnant) has really been on my mind. It was open enrollment time for insurance at work, so I had to decide what to do about coverage or lack there-of. Mine covers nothing infertility related. Honestly it didn't seem to cover much of anything, anything related. Ben's does or will as long as some things are medically documented, so we were discussing me switching to his. While doing my "research" I found that my current insurance will pay for an abortion but not anything infertility. That makes no sense to me and I won't go further with that because thats a whole other blog. The cost coming out of our paychecks will still be the same, so nothing lost there. Also, the new will have a lower deductible, which will be nice. The only thing is that I may have issues with them saying I have pre-existing, (I dont really know why, but I might) so in that case you have to wait 12-18 months for them to give you coverage for that, if I understood correctly. So, if thats the case, and it requires us to wait another year to do anything at the RE, I'm ok with it. Our pocketbooks will appreciate it as well. :)

I am a little frustrated these days. Since we know now that we're both ok and should be able to have kids just like everyone else, I don't know where we will go from here. I don't know what the next dr's appt will be like, what he will suggest or anything. I do know we can't afford it and we are leaning towards not going anymore. Which also frustrates me. Its like we got the ball rolling but we can't do anything else. I know it will all work out, I just have to be patient. I'm working on it. Somedays are much better than others.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I hope everyone has a great day with friends and family. Don't eat too much food! :)


I've already had two dinners, one to go. I'm stuffed. Probably won't eat tonight.

Here are the pics of Lilly in the tutu.





More to come later...

Randoms

It's been a while, so long in fact, I had to go read my last post to see what even happened.
Lots of things, but then again, not really anything.

One of Ben's co-workers, Amy, made Lilly a Tutu. It's cute, she wasn't a big fan of it in the beginning, but eventually she started moving. It was quite funny to watch. It'll make a cute Halloween costume for sure! Amy makes tutu's for all ages, so if you want one hit her up on her blog. She also does I-Spy bags. These are really cool and make quiet activities for the little ones during church and different things.

I came home friday to a pretty little package from Bryn over at Newlywedisms by Bryn. She had a blog givaway to celebrate her blogaversary and I was one of the winners. My prize were these cute little marble magnets. They are super easy to make and really cute! If you saw me at Hobby Lobby yesterday, (you know who you are ;)) thats what I was getting. My only complaints are the magnets I bought, some of them are directional and I picked the wrong side!! I'll have to find some more! AND I might just have a blog giveaway for all my loyal (few) readers. :)

Thanksgiving will be here next week, I'm not excited. I'm not un-excited either, its just not my holiday. It marks my second anniversary at my job (yay for a raise!) but also some other things that happened on my first day of work. My grandpa had been sick on Thanksgiving and was brought into the hospital on my first day of work. He was the 2nd patient I ever did, or attempted. I had to leave, luckily there were two other people there to work that day as well. So the next two weeks or so were rough. I knew what the outcome was going to be and thought I was ok with it. I'm a keep it all in person, and I kept it all in, still some of it two years later. I took on the roll of the tough one for those two weeks because I felt I needed to for my grandma's sake. Even when I wanted to cry, others made me feel bad for it, like it wasn't acceptable to cry. I have alot of regrets that surround the whole situation which is why I think I can't let go and be okay with it all. Its something I'll have to get over. And I will, theres nothing I can do about it now.

This weekend has to be one of the best weekends I've had in a long time. I got to hang out with some great friends, play some new games and just have fun. No stress at all! The stress will come when I make that trip to the grocery store for Thanksgiving food. Ben and I discussed going really really late when all the crazies are gone. I know when we were out and about saturday it was nuts! I'm glad I like online shopping! :)

Pictures of things next...well tomrrow.

Sushi, Make-up, Hot Chocolate, and Friends

Thats my day in a nutshell. I'll elaborate though because sushi and hot chocolate don't really go together.

Lindsey, Courtney and I all went out to lunch today. We ended up having Fuji's. If you've never been there go, its awesome!! Lindsey decided to order the spicy tuna roll. I've never had sushi, nor did I really ever have intentions of eating any, but I did. AND I actually liked it. I'm not a big spicy fan but it was good. No bad nasty fishy taste about it. Texture wasn't even bad. So I can now say I've eaten sushi, didn't hate it. I'm not so sure I'd just up and order it as a meal but I'm not ruling it out as something I'd never eat again. If you know me, thats huge! I mean huge! I'm that person that doesn't like lettuce. Yes, I'm weird, but I think the stuff is yucky. I'll eat it occasionally, but I'm not the order a salad person. I even said this today. "I actually liked the sushi better than lettuce." Lindsey has it recorded as proof. LOL!

We also did some shopping. I've been wanting to get the Bare Minerals makeup thanks to recommendations from Linds and Court. So I technically bought my Christmas present today. So far I really like it, but what I have on is what the lady put on me. I'll try it myself tomorrow.

We went to Cafe Buono. The lady who made my hot chocolate did an AWESOME job!! I have to say thats some of the best I've ever had. The strawberry cake with strawberry icing was wonderful as well!!

It was a pretty great day minus the lovely rain. I'm ready for Christmas stuff. I've been scouting out a few things and then thinking how I could DIY them for so much cheaper. :)

This is random but I learned that there is a word I don't like. Teat. Earlier Ben and I were watching "How it's made" on Discovery and they were showing how cows are milked. The commentator kept saying that word. I dont like it. I told Ben it sounded like a bad word. I just had to share. :)

Went to the doctor yesterday for my ear. They've been bothering me since Saturday and I figured ear infection. I can't really hear out of the left one, right is ok now. I was having some lovely dizziness to go along with it. I got some nasal spray and am supposed to start taking that.

Yesterday I did I good thing. After almost 4 years of not living with my parents, I finally cleaned out my closet in their house. We got rid of alot of clothes. Donated some and took my old prom dresses to a consignment shop. The only things I brought home were some high school keepsake type shirts and a few pairs of shoes. Also my flute. I think my mom is excited to have more closet space now. It was interesting seeing some of the clothes I used to wear. I dont remember ever wearing a medium, but I apparently did. That made me a little sad, because I used to think I was fat then. If I had only known. I still have one bookshelf in there with annuals and pictures that I need to go through. Maybe another day.

The Celine concert was rescheduled for Feb which works out GREAT!!!! :)

Mondays suck

Celine Dion concert has been postponed.

I'll elaborate now. Yesterday was one of those mondays where I should've stayed in bed. Started off with me not being able to find my glasses before I left for work. I can totally see without them but I knew I'd have a headache before the day was over. Went to work, got behind from the beginning. I had gotten myself a doctors appt for after work and getting behind in the morning could ruin the rest of the day. Short story, I canceled my appt and will be going this morning. Sad thing is yesterday was so crazy that I can't remember what time she told me to be there. 9:15 or 9:50? So I'm showing up at 9:15 to be safe. I have nothing better to do.

In the middle of yesterdays chaos, I get a lovely email from Ticketmaster saying our concert has been postponed. ?!?!?!?! I have to call and hope that I can get a refund on my hotel room, otherwise I'd being going to St. Louis for the heck of it. Why let a room go to waste? The lady was awesome, knew why we were cancelling and I'm getting all my money back. YAY! The downside is that we don't know when they will potentially reschedule the concert. My tickets are still good and all, but I dont know if I'll be able to get off work. Crossing my fingers that it all works out. So now I'm off work til Friday. I tried to go in Wed but the person working for me really wants to work, which I can understand. We all need the money these days. I had to use some vacation time, which I would have done anyway, so I guess it all works out.

Now what to do for 3 days? Cleaning is an option, but who really wants to do that? I'm sure I'll find something to occupy my time.

no title...well i guess this is one...

I guess I techinically lied about the new blog layout. I had some code to make it into a three column layout but I haven't managed to figure it out yet. I probably won't either. So for now, you get what you've gotten.

Nothing exciting going on in my life this week. I got my haircut today. Its different. She took some length off and I have bangs. Not cut straight across bangs. Sweep to the side ones that aren't too short, just right in my opinion. Next time, I might get dangerous and get highlights! I love how everytime I go in, she talks about how healthy my hair is and that I need to damage it. Cracks me up!! So I told her that next time, I'm seriously considering damaging it. It'll be subtle though, nothing outrageous for my first time. Lindsey and I got her really good today. Shes expecting a baby in about a month, so we decided to get her a gift. We called her up after our appointment and told her we needed to come back in to get our hair magazines. Secretly, we just wanted to make sure she'd be there later in the day. So, we go to target, throw together a really cute baby gift basket and run back to our hair place. We walk in with the basket and all she says is "Here are your magazines." Then she sees the basket and we both tell her we don't care one bit about those magazines. I think she was really surprised. :)

I started my 101 things in 1001 days list. I dont know if anyone has heard of this but the link is here. Some of my blogs I read have started one and I figured why not try it. I have a list started, some of my things already finished, but I can't seem to get 101 yet. I'm gonna post it on here and use my blog to keep up with what I've done. That'll be coming soon.

Its 8:30p, I honestly could've gone to bed an hour ago. This time change has really really screwed me up. I do have to get up at 4am, so it'd probably be a good thing to go to bed now.

Halloween Pictures

Busy, Busy, Busy!!

Thats pretty much my week in one word: busy! I'll give you somewhat of a re-cap.

Monday-Extremely slow day at work. Carrie Underwood concert was that night. It ended up being me, lindsey, courtney and kalia (my friends daughter) going. Didn't get to bed til about 11 (i think) that night.

Tuesday-Got up at 4:30a for a two hr drive to work. The whole day of worked was horrible. Not because of lack of sleep, although that didn't help, but just the situations and patients and crap. I didn't get lunch til 4pm that day. I'm not sure why I really bothered that late but given I had had no breakfast, I figured it would be a good thing.

Wednesday-work again. I dont really remember wednesday to be honest with you. Its a blur.

Thursday-I worked again. Had to get up at 4:30 again. Another incredibly long day. I only got lunch because the dept secretary offered to grab something from the cafeteria for me. Thank goodnesss for her. I didn't get home that night til almost 8pm! (yes, I signed up for this job, but somedays I'm allowed to hate it and complain about it) :)

Friday-my day off. Should've been a day to rest but I had lots of things to do for Halloween. Also lindsey came over and we ordered t-shirts for the Celine concert. :) They're cute and I will of course have pics of them as soon as they're done. Had the halloween party that night. Pics at some point of course. Got to bed at midnight.

Saturday-woke up at 6 to go to work. I hate working saturdays. After work we baked cookies. Millions of them. Next week is Radiologic Technologist Week. Instead of mass ordering something for all of clients for work, my boss had the idea to do homemade stuff. So Ben, Lindsey and I baked saturday. I think Lindsey left at like 10 pm. So it was a very busy day.

So all in all I've been crazy busy...waiting for that day I can sleep in later than 6 am.

In attempts at making a baby news, this week we found out that our problem is not a problem anymore. Which is great but I also feel like we're back at square one. We had a "plan" or idea of where to go from here, now its back to "Well they should have no problem getting pregnant on their own, so whats up?" Which makes this whole thing frustrating. I actually chose this time not to talk to anyone about it, well other than my mom, because I'm just exhausted with thinking and talking about it. I dont really do much of either but along with my crappy weeks at work, I dont feel like re-living the information with each of the people I talk to it about. Atleast not this week. Next week I may feel like talking about it, but this week I dont. I feel like internalizing it all and getting it out later. I have no time to get it out and deal with it anyway. I'm tired of the "just be patient" and "relax, dont think about it" answers. I know all of these things, really I do. I've been patient and I dont honestly think about it as much as it may come across here. (unsure of how it even comes across) I think about it when we get a new information (good or bad) and that is when I dwell, then I get over it. I'm trying to tell myself that its just not our time to have kids yet, we're not ready and God has other plans for us. I guess maybe I should ask people to be patient with me, when I want to talk about it I will, and if I dont, don't take it personally. Its me and I will when I want to and when I need to.

Its just been a rough week, I need lots of sleep and I'll be better. Pictures soon and a new layout!

My weekend

This weekend we headed to the local fall festival. We hung out, got to see some people I hadn't talked to in a while. Caught up with some that I had seen in a LONG time. Realized that time flies because I hadnt seen them in a few years and their kid was almost 4!?! Where does the time go?

Saturday night we went to the movies with Heath and Lindsey. Lindsey and I saw High School Musical 3: Senior Year. She's a big huge fan and I was fine with seeing it. The movie was good too!The guys saw Max Payne.

Excited faces! Too funny not to post! :)

Sunday we carved one of our pumpkins. I actually did all the carving, Ben just cleaned out the guts for me. While I carved, he cooked the pumpkin seeds. Well roasted them in the oven.

Here's my finished pumpkin. I'm gonna carve the other one later this week.

Finished pumpkin seeds. Nothing really exciting to look at but I just had to post a pic. They were pretty good, but I'd honestly just suck all the salt off of them and throw away if I could. :)

Fall Stuff

I love this time of year. I think I've mentioned that already. I love when the leaves change colors. Hot Chocolate. Apple Cider. I love it!!

Today was my day off, so I baked muffins. Chocolate chip and lemon poppyseed. Chocolate for me and lemon for Ben. If you can believe it, I haven't gotten my camera out since vacation. So I figured today was the day. Slapped on my 50mm lense, which made my camera feel 20 times lighter and snapped away at some stuff.

Lilly in her new sweater. I know what you're thinking, She's one of those people who dresses up her dogs. No actually my dog gets cold and thats why we have one for her. She only looks annoyed because I was holding a treat to get her still and she wanted it.

This is the extent of my fall decorating, plus the mums on the front porch. I got them all half off at Hobby Lobby.

Lastly, me. Modeling my new scarf, hat and gloves I got a while back. They were too cute and affordable to pass up. I like the gloves because as you can see you can have your fingers out if you need to do something. I will probably get caught wearing these at work. Yes, it gets that cold at work and with these I can still type at the computer. But you also have the little part that goes over your fingers. Cool! Also, I half way like my self portrait. I think its the lighting...

Randoms

Let's see....

In fertility news...I had a not so fun test yesterday. Its called a hysterosalpingogram. Say that 10 times fast! I wasn't at all excited about the test, but I was even more not excited about the fact that it was at the nearby imaging center. I did 2 semesters of my x-ray school rotation through there, meaning I knew all the x-ray techs. Normally, knowing people doing your test would make you feel comfortable. This time I didn't want to know the people because the test involved putting contrast or dye in your uterus and then it flows into your fallopian tubes. I'll let you figure out how it gets there. ....yeah, not a test you'd want to have everyday, much less with people you know. I will say the tech, who I did know, was awesome. She made me feel very comfortable and my nerves went away quickly. I had to wait almost an hour sitting on the xray table because the radiologist was busy with a biopsy. I had also heard stories that the pain from this test was horrible, causing some people to pass out! I don't claim to have a high pain tolerance, but I can't say anything has ever been that painful for me. Pain was minimal and over as soon as the test was over. The test only really took maybe 15 minutes. Results are good, so now we move on to more things. Did get some bloodwork results back, which resulted in trying some meds for a while, then repeat tests again.

In work news, my schedule has changed again. It results in some good mileage money which will be going directly to the savings account. That I'm excited about.

I couldn't help myself and had to buy our halloween costumes. For mine, I only had to buy two things. A tank top which was only $3.99! Gotta love Old Navy clearance. I also had $20 off my whole order! I guess I can reveal who we're gonna be. Have you seen Juno? I'm going to be Juno and Ben is gonna be Paulie Bleeker. Pregnant belly. Short yellow shorts. Yes...we're going all out. The whole pregnant thing has nothing to do with us wanting kids, just a coincidence. I'm excited about halloween! :)

I'm ready for the election. I know who I'm voting for and I'm proud of myself for that. The last presidential election, I admit, I had no clue who I wanted to vote for. I saved president for last and honestly I don't remember who I picked.

I dont remember if I said this or not (too lazy to check as well) but my grandma had her surgery. They got all the cancer and she went home two days later. So all is well there!

One Step At A Time

I had heard this song on the radio, but didn't really listen to it. Then I listened to the words. Kinda how I feel some days...


Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

by Jordin Sparks

:)

I forgot to mention some exciting news. Very sad that I find this exciting...

Our cable company has decided its time to branch out and get some new channels. Two of which include The CW and Bravo!! YAY! I got addicted to Project Runway while on vacation...now I can atleast watch next season. :)

Sadly that was the highlight of my day yesterday.

How many posts can I do in one day?

An update, with words, no pictures.

Nothing really going on that I think is exciting. Yesterday, work was awful!! I hate the days at work where I feel like I wasn't properly trained to do my job and that nothing will go right. I thought for sure I was gonna get yelled at by someone, the radiologist, my boss. But no, I didn't, which was fine because I give myself enough grief over my mistakes, don't need it from others. I think it helped that I admitted what went wrong/didn't work out right, instead of going on like nothing happened. I'll get Monday to fix that mistake. It didn't help that I'm sick. I couldn't sleep the night before, so I took some sinus meds that hadn't worn off by the time I got to work. I still haven't figured out why childrens meds make me so loopy. I avoid the adult stuff, its worse. If Lindsey hadn't been there with me, it wouldn't have been pretty. Between people telling me they had heard our machine wasn't very good, to wanting to go to the next closest hospital which everyone thinks is the bombdigady (yes, it has its perks I will admit) I was ready to go off on someone. I kept my cool, but it was still very irritating. Clock out time was exciting yesterday, thats for sure!!

We had our first RE appt. It went well, had some tests, got scheduled for some other tests and will be back in several weeks to go over what those tests showed. My upcoming test is one I'm not looking forward to at all. Its quick but not painless. I got to observe many of them as an x-ray student and always said I never wanted one. It's just something I will have to deal with though. I'm glad we had our first appt, it means the ball is rolling. It also means some priorities are getting switched around. Money is a big issue due to the fact that insurance pays for no fertility anything. So buying halloween costumes this year is out of the question, which is fine, its not like I'm crying over it. Although I did like my idea. :) Lots of other things we have enjoyed doing/buying, etc will change. I'm totally ok with it though, if it means we will have a child one day. I have a feeling all of this may affect some friendships, which probably weren't strong to begin with. Our priorities are and will be different than some, which some may not understand. I think out of this we will find out our true friends though. I'm rambling. I never know if I get across what I mean to get across in these things. haha...I shall quit for now.

Vacation Pics 10/9 and 10/10/08

Kylie chillin during mini golf
She got a hole in one here!
Serendipity, the house they used in Nights in Rodanthe
Its right on the beach. Looked a little different in the movie. Had blue shutters, probably wasn't condemned at the time...

View underneath the house. I'm pretty sure the concrete was once level with the sand
My dad, uncle jerry, aunt jean, and my mom
My aunt and I posing in front of the house

The driveway/garage...theres a big hole in the concrete now

Turtle at Pea Island Wildlife Refuge

Boiler from The Oriental, a ship that ran ashore in the 1800's

Vacation Pics 10/8/08

My last sunrise of the week. It was cloudy and raining the rest of the week.




The famous flip flop...hehe.

My little cousin Kylie on the front steps of our beach house. Yes it was pink!
Outside the aquarium
My dad and I on the beach

Kylie flying a kite with my Aunt and Uncle (her grandparents)